haunted..

This goes out to someone that was . Once the most important person in my life I didn't realize it at the time . I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don't really expect you to either . It's just , I don't even know Just listen .. You're the one that I want, the one that I need . The one that I gotta have just to succeed . When I first saw you , I knew it was real . I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel . That wasn't me . let me show you the way . I looked for the sun, but it's raining today . I remember when I first looked into your eyes . It was like God was there , heaven in the skies . I wore a disguise cause I didn't want to get hurt . But I didn't know I made everything worse . You told me we were crazy in love . But you didn't care when push came to shove . If you loved me as much as you said you did . Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit . Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me . I loved you with my heart, really and truly . I guess you forgot about the times that we shared . When I would run my fingers through your hair . Late nights, just holding you in my arms . I don't know how I could do you so wrong . I really wanna show you I really need to hold you . I really wanna know you like no one else could know you . You're number one, always in my heart . And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart . I need you , I miss you , I want you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you . You were my everything , I really miss you . I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man . And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand . The thought of that just shatters my heart . It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart . At times we was off I was scared to show you . Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you . Without you, everything seems strange . Your name is forever planted in my brain . Damn it, I'm insane, Take away the pain , Take away the hurt . Baby, we can make it work . What about when you looked into my eyes , Told me you loved me , As you would hugged me . I guess everything you said was a lie . I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes . Now I'm not even a thought in your mind . I can see clearly, my love is not blind . I just wish everything could have turned out differently . I had a special feeling about you . I thought maybe you did too , You would understand , but no matter what, you'll always be in my heart .You'll always be my baby . Our first day , it seemed so magical . I remember all the time that I had with you . Remember when you first came to my house ? You looked like an angel wearing that blouse . We hit it off , I knew it was real . But now I can't take all the pain that I feel . Reach in your heart , I know I'm still there . I don't wanna hear that you no longer care . Remember the times ? Remember when we kissed ? I didn't think you would ever do me like this . I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed . I thought you'd be there for me , this I confess . You said you were my best friend, was that a lie ? Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy . I tried , I tried , I tried , and I'm trying . Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying . And I do miss you . I just thought we were meant to be . I guess now, we'll never know . The only thing I want is for you to be happy . Whether it be with me, or without me . I just want you to be happy ..

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone